the year is coming to an end!! the good news is...i have found a job. =)

*pats on me shoulder, mate*(==> trying to get myself used to the aussie slang. so i won't b an outcast should there be a need when i have to go to an aussie uni)

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i have always been a free-thinker. i respect all religions but i have yet to put total faith in any yet. Christianity is one of the few religions that overwhelms me. i have been to churches since young. it was definitely an eye-opener on my first visit to a church(i was in pri4). up till this day, every visit to the church has never failed to amaze me.

the immensity of faith placed by the followers on God is so great that it can be sometimes very bewildering and very overwhelming. i do not doubt the existence of God, neither do i have strong faith in Him.

today is the 4th service i have been to in my entire life. it is the first time, however, that i am attending service at ron's church. it was a youth service so it wasn't boring at all.(i can assure you on that ;D) attended an adult service before and sorry to say, i almost dozed off. >.<

everyone started off with singing songs. songs dedicated to to God. harmonious it may be, but at a particular verse, i was totally dumbfounded by the scene before me.

"there is no higher calling,"

"no greater honour,"

"than to bow and kneel,"

"before the throne."

(i think it went something like that, sorry if i get it wrong)

at this particular verse, a few people around me and a singer on stage knelt down immediately, with their heads buried between their knees. (where can you ever find such faith???)

even ron knelt down when we sang this verse for the 3rd time. o.O

it maybe just a song to me, a song written to praise the Lord. but to His followers it was more than a song, it was a connection, a bond.

i wasn't singing because the songs were very new to me. and i wasn't quite sure about myself at one point of the time when everyone else was singing. i felt like i was going to cry. i wasn't sure if it was the workings of God but i just felt really lonely, despite the hall of singing followers. (was i actually touched by their faith??)

actually, this isn't the 1st time i'm witnessing such events. no big fuss actually. there was once when ron invited me and sus to FOP(FestivalOfPraise). an annual event held at the indoor stadium for Christians to come together to celebrate their religion. the enthusiasm bursting from within and that passion for Lord are really overwhelming(sorry for the lack of vocabulary but that is the best word to describe how i felt).

at the youth service today, someone was sharing her experience with God, how God had made an impact in her life. to be frank, my belief in the existence of God started off very long ago. (i think it was during pri5 or 6) i experienced God for the first time in my life. it was during a mid-year exam. mathematics, to be exact. during those times, completing a paper in the given time was a little tough. i was rushing. but it was nothing compared to pressure i was facing from the blanks that were constantly appearing in my papers. i did not know how to do most of the problem sums. (almost had a nervous breakdown)

i prayed and He answered. i scored 98/100.

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haa. previously i was talking about having to have found a job.

well..guess what??! i'm gonna quit even b4 i even start. o.O

i went down for training for 2days already.

and it's really bugging me.

the way their system works, which they say they adopt network marketing.

(a.k.a pyramid sales??)

after much explanation, they say it wasn't because i need not invest any money before having to join their company.

but seems to me, it is still nevertheless of much similarity. =.=

so i thought that I AM SO NOT GOING BACK.

(it's not gonna take much determination or consideration to decide that i want to quit)

all because i don't highly admire their way of working.

to be frank, network marketing is being taught in Harvard University in the Business course. so by logical sense, it(network marketing) should be very safe.

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pardon me for my ignorance, but network marketing to me is still...people at the lowest rank in the hierarchy will have to slog their guts out for people at the topmost positions.

of course, that doesn't mean that the "bosses" don't have to work at all. but their earnings solely belongs to them while the poor people at the bottom will have to give a share of their pie to the ones at the top. (most unfair, i would say)

yesterday my father had a long chat with me(more than 2hrs*sleeps*). he was explaining why i shouldn't be taking up this (so-called) job opportunity.

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one major concern was as to why was it possible for all ranks in the hierarchy to be able to have a share of the pie when a deal is closed.

this is largely due to the fact that the products are priced at the most exorbitant prices, so eventually everybody in the company gets to get the pie! =) simply known as commission fees.

in order to get higher commission fees, we will try to recruit in more newbies. so that we can feast upon of their profits. in this marketing tactic, it will be most profitable for the ones in the business but a major scam to the consumers.

in order to earn an(i did not make any grammer mistake here, "an" should be used when the adjective/noun/adverb starts with A,E,I,O,U and H) honest income, i have decided to break all ties with the company. >.<

so now i'm still very much unemployed. xD

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an additional point to the "an" thing. i'll give an example.

for instance, you would say, "an hour" instead of, "a hour".

get my point? lol. (don't mind me, i'm just laming around)

it has been long but the wait was worthwhile. >.<

the past 2 yrs were the worst ever of my schooling life.

treacherous.

almost fell into the pit of depression until the knight in shining armor came to my rescue.

(lol...no knight la. got Mr.Ng though xD)

1st man other than my lao-pei to c me cry so many times.

very kind of him. =)

thx to him n all my lovely babes who helped me through.

love them to itsy-bitsy- teeny-weeny bits.

(big huGGs)

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refreshed~

i smell freedom! n i m a tears-no-more kinda girl.

*punchpunch*

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it has been 15days since the Alev r over.

thank God. =)

(Praise the Lord)

have been real bz since the As r over.

went out to look for jobs.

some company called me up alr.

(hot stuff leh) ;D

but i'll only b available aft i come back from my trip.

will blog agn aft tt.

(short n sweet)

*smack*